Hard to believe your birthday will be here so quickly...already on Tuesday. I wish I'd finished the painting so that it'd be there in time, but...you'll be in Coventry anyway.
I had the strangest dreams last night. They were all over the place. One was about going to a youth conference (I must have been a teenager...but I felt like me inside a teenager), and was full of all the angst of who you walk around with, and how quickly you get to sessions, what sessions you choose to go to based on who will be going with you, and where you sit. At the end, I was just looking for a piano but all of the areas where I could just play and be left alone where occupied by people practicing their violins...or their vocal ensembles. It was so frustrating and I decided that I'd just go back to my room and lock the door.
Then I dreamed that I was trying to find you frantically, but everywhere I tried to look, I couldn't access. I don't remember how that ended because it was just as I was waking up.
So, just what you wanted...my dream summary. I don't dream much right now - am generally so tired at the end of the day that I just collapse and sleep like a brick.
Today will be a test of my resolve. Everyone will be gone, but am going to meet it head on...and enjoy the relative silence. I miss you, but it seems to be less now that I'm assured that it's only a temporary reprieve.
So, I've brought home a new canvas. It's just a bit smaller, and I'm not sure what I want to put on it. Honestly, I've been thinking that I'd like to do a flowered design similar to what I did with the heron. It was fun to work with the blues and shapes and nothing real exact. I also thought about doing something with a piano. I did a jazz piece for my mom...prolly one of my favorite paintings (it was acrylic on paper...and about .75m x 1m...a nice big size). Might be nice to do a smaller musical piece. I'm not sure. Will have to do some sketches and experiment on paper because I commit to the canvas. I wish the canvas were bigger, but maybe when this one is done, I'll invest in another big one like the golfer.
